Thanks for responding. Just to confirm, folinic acid would not be suitable? I can't help but buy into the hysteria about the supposed risks of unmetabolised folic acid. I can overcome that though.
Is insomnia a problem with the kutaj? My fear is it will make me feel great, then either poop out or be unsustainable due to sides.
Yeah, I have almost no motivation at all. I struggle to do basic household chores, even things like shaving I avoid unless I really have to.
My anhedonia is pretty bad. Watching TV, playing games, exercise etc. just feels empty, so when I feel bored I realise there is nothing I can do for it. Sharing experiences with loved ones does decrease the anhedonia somewhat. I still am able to enjoy my favourite foods and seeing my dog play happily, but that is basically it.
Severe asociality is probably my worst symptom. Communicating like this feels unnatural and a chore. In Andy Cutler's book he describes low histamine as presenting similarly to schizophrenia and borderline personality disorder; that pretty much describes me perfectly. I have no sense of self and something makes every social interaction feel superficial or fake.