Lately I´m feeling very scared. I had Lexapro for 14 months in 2014 and after quiting (now is 1.5 years since that happen) I haven´t recovered my libido, arousal and pleasure. I still can orgasm but is very forced... i never fancy sex ... it is not natural.
I´m female, 38 y.o.
I think I could live without having strong orgasms, the fact that drives me crazy is I have lost every flare of attraction for guys. I just don´t like them anymore. I used to be very sexual and like men. Now I feel I can´t have this butterflies, interest... etc. So I cannot fall in love what for me is more important than the sexual intercourse. That has lead me to have a depression and extrem anxiety.
It is very interesting what Dr. Helen Fisher has discovered in her researchings and I´m scared:
Dopamine is so important and this horrible medicine has messed up everything.
I don´t suffer nowadays from emotional anesthesia: I feel fear, love and compassion etc.... but I´m really run out of romantic and lust feelings... I don´t know if this is strange in the spectrum of PSSD or is just that without a libido there´s not romanticism and love.. I don´t know..
I also 1 year AFTER quiting I started to feel extremly anxious and depressed, but during the 1st year after quiting even I wasn´t on the medication I wasn´t anxious. Escitalopram erased my anxiety.
Nowadays I need to have some lorazepam to function. I try to have the minimum dose everyday, but I need it to survive this big issue. Hopefully it won´t wor4sen my horrible perse PSSD.
There are some forums where people with the same problem talk and try hormons... and other psychiatric medicines to try to solve the problem. I´m scared about be my own Guinea pig and worsen my situation. I have read your articles with the good and bad points of dopamine agonist and I dont wannna worsen my little capacity for sex.
I´m very lost.
I can add my blood tests, according to the criteria of my GP and gynecologist, seems to be "fine" because except from prolactin, that is very high, the rest of components are in the range but I don´t believe to be in the range means be OK: actually, estrogen, progesterone and testosterone are in the range but very low in the limits. I have read somewhere in your articles that from your point of view is important firstly to put in balance the hormonal situation before trying more things. Am I right?
My mother tongue is not English and I find very difficult sometimes to follow your long threads advicing people.
I really really hope you can give me some help, please.
Thank you very much for your attention